so i'm basically just posting this because i'm procrastinating. sorry i haven't posted something real in forrrrevvvverrr. i still don't have a computer so i'm posting this on my stupid netbook. it's not really that stupid, it's kind of helpful, i just prefer my normal laptop because it's faster and i can do so much morrrrrrrrrrrre. i've been really depressed lately. especially now. i got a bad grade in one of my online courses. i just didn't understand it at all. i shouldn't have taken it. grrrr. whatever. i'll get it over it. i have knocked up right now. this movie is actually really funny. just the dialog. and jason segel's body movements. that guy is just so fucking hilarious. i'm not censoring myself anymore (was a i really ever?). fuck it, it's not like i talk like this in real life anyway, i'm quite good at censoring my mouth, but not my writing. whatever. so this is a random story. the other day i put this shirt on that i hadn't worn in like a really long time (to be honest i was kind of surprised that it still fit, but i guess it was kind of big before and it's sort of stretchy so i guess it makes sense). it's this camo shirt with like a pale pink rose on the chest, i didn't really wear it that much to school or anything, maybe just a few times, the only real significant time i wore it was new years eve 2005 and i don't really even have pictures from that and i'm not really sure if that many people were there that would've remembered it. anyway, i was wearing the shirt for like half an hour and then i was like woah, something smells really funky in our house...what the fuck is that...it smells like...pot. and i was like no i must be wrong, but then i sniffed my shirt and i was like wooooooooooah what the fuuuuck why the fuck does my shirt smell like fucking pot?!?!?! and then i realized, i must not have washed this shirt the last time i wore it. and i was like wait when did i last wear this shirt??? it must have been to a concert at one point because that's the only time i'm (usually) in a room filled with pot smoke, considering the fact that i don't actually smoke. and i'm like 99% sure that i didn't wear it that night my friends hot boxed my car (thanks guys, that was truly a special evening...in case you didn't realize that was dripping with sarcasm.) but then i was like what the hell concert did i wear this to??? it definitely wasn't in the past year, because i totally didn't wear that shirt in a long time and i didn't go to any concerts really the year before that because i was too sick (except for sufjan stevens and broken social scene and i remember what i wore to both of those). so i was like...what concert did i fucking wear this to? and then i was like wait, i think i wore this to kill hannah...that was in april of 2006. that means i hadn't washed that shirt in 3 fucking years. but then i was like wait, i totally wore that shirt one time at work camp. so i probably washed it after that (at least i should have, but it's highly unlikely that i didn't). so anyway, i guess the point of this story is (other than i might not wash my clothes frequently enough) the smell of pot smoke lingers for an incredibly long time. and anyone who tells you that the smell of doesn't linger is fucking lying to you. anyway, i'm watching this movie and it just got really gross. that sex scene between katherine heigl and seth rogen could seriously just not have happened. they could have just implied that they had sex. i really didn't need to see that. thanks a lot judd apatow. anyway, i really actually have to do this paper. so peace out.

i'm totally going to make my family do this.

filming this must've been hella fun.

i'm 19 now.

yay!

:)

"troublemaker" by weezer.

okay everyone, SO SORRY about not posting in THREE WEEKS!!!! wtf, can't believe this happened.....anyway, so much has gone down, my computer broke so now i'm using this little netbook which is pretty small and slow and stuff so yeah...and i had classes and work to do, so crazzzzy! i don't know where to even start with anything...i guess i'll just be mentioning random things for a while....so much has changed....so much is still the same...now i'm being emo, hahaha. anyway, nick and i aren't friends anymore. he has a girlfriend right now and he thinks he might want to get serious with her and it's too hard for him to talk to me because we both really like each other (the way things are now) but we don't know what would actually happen if we met up face to face at this point and i guess we're both scared to know and he said he couldn't always have the possibility of me being "the one" or whatever in the back of his mind.... this has been really kind of weird for me because we were starting to get so close again and now it's just....whatever. i'm sure i'll write more about this later. anyway, it's like an hour until my birthday...yippee, lol! more later, lots of love! -megan.

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hey everyone, sorry for the lack of posting, i've been SO BUSY! in case you didn't know, i'm taking a full sememster course in three weeks! so it's really intense! i've also been having some copyright problems with images that i've borrowed from other sites and posted here. i never meant to steal anything, i was just trying to add some visuals to my thoughts, and i'm sorry to everyone, i didn't realize i was taking anything that was copyrighted, most pictures i find are on google images and i thought all that stuff was safe. i really should've known better and i feel bad. i try to credit where i get pictures, but don't always do it. sorry to anyone who was affected by this, i really didn't mean any harm. this is a blog where i just post my thoughts and stuff i like. i don't take credit for things i didn't write or anything and i definitely don't make any money off this site. it's just for fun. if anyone ever has a problem in the future, please let me know, i don't want to offend anyone. anyway...i've been super busy with my class. it's over on thursday and i'll be going home for the weekend on thursday night, where i'll be super busy for the next three days preparing for grandpa's 80th birthday. (i know right? i'm getting really sad and really morbid about the whole thing, but more on that later, maybe) i just wanted to let everyone know i'm not dead, the blog's not dead, i'm just trying to fix it up to avoid stepping on any more toes. so sorry to everyone. love you lots. megs.

p.s. my jaw really hurts and i'm seriously starting to get worried.

what a good show...so where are the kids now? this is what i could find:

lee thompson young, aka jett jackson. is currently 25, went to the university of south carolina and has continued acting. was in akeelah and the bee, upn's drama south beach, the movie friday night lights, an episode of smallville, the hills have eyes 2 and scrubs.
then:

now:


kerry duff, aka kayla west. is now 28. was on one episode of instant star. imdb reports that she is considering a career as a pediatrician.
then:


lindy booth, aka riley grant/hawk. 9s now 30 and she's continued acting and has been in lots of things including wrong turn, american psycho 2, dawn of the dead, and october road, as well as guest appearnces on lots of things such as cold case and csi: ny.
then:

now:


ryan sommers baum, aka j.b., is now 26. he went to nyu and graduated in 2005. he is pursuing a master of divinity. he is involved with the quaker community and is also involved in outreach in south africa. he is listed as a staff member at the college of wooster and is supposedly living in oakland where he is doing ministry. he is married to a woman named molly dowell, also a theological student, in 2007.
now:


jeff douglas, aka cubby, is now 37. he continued acting and was that tv show strange days and also in the movie john q. i don't know much more about him. here's a then pic, couldn't find a now:


montrose hagins, aka coretta jackson, is according to imdb 85 and according to wikipedia 92. she's continued acting as she has been for years. good for her! could not find pics.

gordon greene, aka wood jackson, has continued acting and was on the young and the restless amongst other things. could not find pics.

melanie nichols-king, aka jules jackson, is still acting and has been in lots such as svu, how she move, the wire, cupid, and one life to live.
now:


karen corona, aka delilah jett's stalker, has been in a few movies, all indie and pretty unknown. couldn't find a then pic, but here's a now:


random people that appeared on the show: meagan goode, rachel mcadams, britney spears, eartha kitt.

just found this on missbehave...it's awesome, made my day a lot better...please watch:

lyrics:
I'm so excited right now.
Please cheer along with me B-B-B-B-B-Go Bayside

That party last night was off the hook caught it on Beta
Broke an Elvis statue
And put Hounddog up for a wager-a
Johnny Dakotas smoking weed
Got into The Attic with a fake ID
Chief Henry was Zacks Indian
Where can I get me a buddy band?
Man, I Love Bayside

I wanna enroll at Bayside High
Learn from Belding on how to bonsai
After school hit the Max where we dine
And I could be Nitro on the Teen Line
Im protesting cups
Styrofoam cups
My friends are at the beach but I wont cut
I am champion at quest-ions
Name the planets in their order to the sun
Who cared if Zack Attack was a big fake
And yes adding Tori was a big mistake
Chess match with Screech I call checkmate
Zack ditched his date she was overweight (NO BIG LOVE)

That party last night was off the hook caught it on Beta
Broke an Elvis statue
And put Hounddog up for a wager-a
Johnny Dakotas smoking weed
Got into The Attic with a fake ID
Chief Henry was Zacks Indian
Where can I get me a buddy band?
Man, I Love Bayside

AND I LOVE BRICK PHONES
BUT I HATE VALLEY
I LOVE BAYSIDE

Some lessons I learned along the way
Like, dancing with a sprain is a-ok
Never make a snow white rapping play
Theres enough cheese at this buffet
Dont get hooked on caffeine pills
And save Becky before oil spills
Malibu Sands aint the place to be
Cause you gotta deal with Cierosi
Look at A.C., girlies lovin his dimples
Get some Zitoff to eliminate pimples
When they graduated, I may have cried
Well be friends forever here at Bayside

vaness hudgens getting ready for a photo shoot.


paris hilton pretty in pink at a hotel opening.


beyonce performing.


bow wow and gabrielle union at a party.


peaches geldof in monaco.


christie brinkley in the hamptons.


jill zarin in the hamptons.


ramona singer in the hamptons.


kim on the beach.



kanye shopping.


beyonce and jay at a club.



kristen cavallari in malibu.


pink on a bike ride.


sophia bush leaving a work out.


kendra and holly in vegas.


jesse metcalfe and james blunt in monte carlo.


kerry washington looking fab.


audrina looking cute.


jessica stroup at madison square garden.


annalynne mccoy.


ivanka trump at a gala.


rihanna in nyc.


chloe sevigny in rome.


sanaa lathan at the beach.


kourtney and khloe at the beach.


chris pine going to 7/11.


lindsay lohan going to adrian grenier's house.

i'm just going to be completely honest with this so here it goes....

i'm really nervous about my upcoming job. i just found out i'm supposed to go to this certification thing today but a.) i have class and i can't miss class because we only have 11 class meetings and it's already really intense as it is b.) i don't have my birth certificate, passport, and social security card c.) i feel like this is totally my fault like i somehow should've known i was supposed to go so i feel really guilty that i'm like not all up on things.

my room is completely messy and i haven't worked out lately because i haven't had any TIME! this intensified course is just that...really intense! plus i'm taking two other courses online which quite frankly i really haven't done anything for an i'm getting incredibly worried that i'm getting behind in those. i think i'll definitely have to spend my weekend playing catch up but we all know me and i might not even do that....i always do what i have to do most of the time (wow what a messed up sentence, always...most of the time...wtf, whatever i'm not even going to bother changing it) but i wait until it's absolutely imperative that i do it.

i have like no friends here. the one that i do have is absolutely insane and for some reason thinks this is her room and doesn't knock before she comes in which quite honestly drives me mad. and honestly she's kind of annoying and says sutff that's kind of like wtf. last night i made the mistake (and i don't even know why i did this, this has happened so many times i don't know why i keep doing this) of showing her old pictures of me, so of course the whole wow you USED to be really pretty thing came up and of course that reminded me of someone else telling me that a few years ago, someone else really really bad who definitely meant to hurt me by that and i don't think that this person meant to hurt me by that but a.) even if the bad person hadn't said something similar i'd probably feel kind of weird about it because a lot of people talk about how pretty i USED to be and it's just awkward b.) the fact is that the bad person did say something like that and regardless of whether or not she knew that, it brought up those memories. also, she oh so generously offered to help me lose weight and basically told me that she thought my eating habits were out of control. fuck you bitch, you don't know my life! i go through more stuff on a daily basis emotionally than anyone could ever know so just fuck off!!! i've lost so much weight this past year and yeah i've kind of plateaued/gained a few but not extreme amounts of pounds but i'm doing pretty well for myself, thank you, and i don't need your fucking help, i know how to work out, i know how to eat right, it's a matter of doing it and yeah lately i haven't been doing that great with either because emotionally, i'm a fucking wreck!!!!!!!!!!!!! she also told me that i need to lose weight before i see nick, which at this point may never even happen, but more about that below, because he hasn't seen me since i was like 15 in the pictures that i showed her last night and yeah i did look totally different, aka better. well, for your information, i have sent nick recent pictures and he tells me i look good, so fuck off, plus that's not your place.

now about nick. nick and i have been talking like fiends lately. we've been friends for a long time and i don't know what it is but every year around this time of year, aka summer, our friendship always really rekindles and kind of verges on something more. i actually really want to see him this summer, and yeah i do want to lose weight and look bomb ass good for that but i don't want other people to tell me i need to do that because seriously who says shit like that SERIOUSLY!!!!!, but now i don't even know if that will happen. we had a really long, good conversation last night and i was thinking wow this is amazing we know each other so well, i don't think i've ever known someone, especially a guy and especially a person who i have basically only had phone and web contact with for the past four years, so well. but then this morning he told me we can't talk anymore....wtf. so then i went all old psycho megan and called him like 3 times which probably really pissed him off but whatever. and then later this morning my dad asked if i wanted to go to new york in a few weeks and of course i do and that would be a great time for me to see nick but now if he's not talking to me i can't which just sucks....

and, as if weird stuff doesn't happen enough my (now ex, trust me, i'm still not sure if he recognizes this, but we are NOT TOGETHER ANYMORE) boyfriend called me from fucking jail last night. i didn't accept the charges, i don't know what he's in for and i don't care. i called his house and told the people there that if they talk to him to tell them i couldn't accept the charges and he should just not bother trying to call me anymore. i'm not dating someone that goes to jail, come on. i'm better than that, i'm sorry that sounds bitchy, but come on. we're so different anyway and i'm just so over his bullshit which really doesn't matter now because that's over and done with...i just guess i'm mad at myself for wasting time with him at all because he's a total loser. sorry but it's true.

also, i don't feel connected to anything i used to feel connected to which is totally random and kind of weird, but it just makes me feel bizarre because my tastes are changing, and they're basically reverting to what they used to be before, before everrrrrrything, which is good because i suppose that's the time in my life when i was happiest and most truly myself but it just makes me feel weird about all the stuff that i've been liking lately, but that's just stupid and it really shouldn't be a cause of stress on my life at all but unfortunately it is.

the saddest part of everything is that i feel like despite everything i was happier this time LAST year. fuck, not two fucking years ago but last year because i'd worked so hard to remove all the stuff from two years ago and i felt like i had so much more support, i don't know, everything just feels incredibly fucked up right now. as i said before, i feel like my life is falling apart.

guess where???? where i am now!

from popeater:

'Housewives' Set to Class Up the Capital
PopEater
posted: 27 MINUTES AGO

Washington D.C. has its fair share of backstabbers, gossip mongers and cheating husbands ... in other words a perfect setting for a 'Real Housewives' series. Bravo announced on Tuesday they're on the prowl for "influential players" and "fashion sophisticates" to fill out a cast for the rapidly-expanding franchise.

Skip over this content The network wants "those women who have their pulse on the most important cultural events, political galas, gallery openings and fundraisers in Washington society," according to a statement by Bravo Media's Frances Berwick.

Producers may have a hard time nabbing an actual politician or politician's wife to participate, but expect "people who rub elbows with the most prominent people in the country and easily move in the city's diverse political and social circles."

There are currently 'Housewives' classing up Orange County, New York, Atlanta and New Jersey.

i've put this off long enough...i don't usually recognize anniversaries of deaths anymore because it just depresses me, but considering how into sublime i am right now, i feel that i must. and i better do it before the day is over...

it's been 13 years from this day...we miss you bradley. your music is some of the best. i couldn't live without it. wish you'd been around to make more. rest in peace.

as i've shared with you, i'm currently obsessed with two bands: sublime and rage against the machine. and we all know that when i love a band, i become enthralled with their frontman. since bradley nowell of sublime is dead (tragically, so sad, i love him...more on that later), i'm like obsesssssed with zack de la rocha. i've liked him for a while. he was on the original 2005 future husbands list (if you didn't know me then, don't worry about it, it was dumb). i like his message. i like how he's always saying something with his music. and i love how he's a political activist. oh yeah, and he's hot..... the only thing is, he's almost 40...he's more than twice my age. is that weird? i don't know. he's my man of the moment, what can i say....

don't even get me started on that game last night. lebron wasn't on...delonte wasn't on...mo wasn't on....everyone just didn't play their best. and the refs sucked, too, but what can you do? all we can do is move on...and that means that we have to win tomorrow night. if we don't win tomorrow night, well, then i'm afraid that we are...fucked. sorry, but we can't count on winning games at home even anymore since we didn't the first game and we've put ourselves in a position where we HAVE to win one in orlando and i'm afraid that has to be tomorrow's game since putting them at a 3-1 advantage would just be stupid. i can't think about this now though. i have so much to do. i really didn't do that much at home this weekend and now i have to write this paper. i'm stressed out. and my room's a mess. but i can worry about that later... ciao for now.

finally found a pic of when usher rushed the floor last night. it was great.

this guy was one of my favorite fans last night. this sign plus his awesome dance moves....it was amazing.