ah, i'm feeling better. you know how i know? well, one of the reasons anyway. i'm listening to new music. and actually enjoying it. like blasting it in the car and not feeling antsy like i have to change it to something familiar. before when i heard new music i was just kind of like, eh, this is cool, i'll remember it for later when i'm feeling better. but now, i'm actually enjoying it. for the past few months i've just been listening to everything old and familiar. blasting tons of afi like listening to all the songs of my past will somehow make it 2005 again and nothing will have ever happened. but life doesn't work like that, does it?

annnnnnyyyyywaaaaaay. don't worry about the layout change. it's only for vampire week. i'm not going full-on goth for you or something. i just thought it'd be nice for our little celebration of the undead.

just a few updates on my life. yesterday was rainy. so i saw two movies. first, i saw orphan by myself. that movie is twisssssted! you must see if you haven't already. i know i'm a little late on orphan but i just hadn't gotten around to seeing it yet, and when i finally did, i was so shocked it made the wait so worth it. seriously, it's crazy. seeing it was kind of funny. it was the middle of the day and i was the only person there, like literally, the only person. and even though it was broad daylight outside, being the ONLY person in a dark movie theater during a horror movie is a little creepy. later on i saw all about steve with arianne and krista. WORST MOVIE EVER. it was really, really, really stupid. but then we went to the cheesecake factory for dinner and that was really, really fun so it was all good.

you know what i was just thinking about? alice in chains. i love alice in chains. and i love them more in the fall for some reason. their sound just reminds me of fall colors. and it just sounds better in the fall. it doesn't fit quite right with other seasons. but you know what pisses me off? how alice in chains came back with a new singer after layne staley died. they should have just stopped. and if they wanted to keep performing, which makes sense, i mean they're all good musicians, especially jerry cantrell, he's totally talented, but they should've gotten another singer and started performing under a different name. not alice in chains. and even if they HAD to do that, they should've just had like one reunion tour and played the old stuff with the new singer just for the fans to like go to a concert and see the other guys and sing along to their favorite alice in chains songs, but they should not have started releasing NEW music with this NEW singer as alice in chains. because to me, they're not alice in chains anymore. they're a different group. i mean, they still have the same guys, and the same sound, but it's not the same...to me, a lead singer makes a group (except maybe in fall out boy, and wow i can't believe i brought THEM up in a discussion about alice in chains, but yeah, that's ANOTHER story, one that i'll actually probably never talk about because i don't really care about them, but still, you get the point, in alice in chains, layne staley was the lead singer and the FRONT MAN....maybe some people would say jerry cantrell was/is the frontman, but i would disagree). to me, alice in chains died when layne died. like nirvana died when kurt died. and sublime died when bradley died. the guys from nirvana kept doing their musical thing. obviously, dave grohl has the foo fighters. and krist novoselic had that band, sweet some number or another, i can't really remember, but he did. and the guys from sublime kept performing, under the name the long beach all stars, but they weren't sublime anymore without bradley. and to me, alice in chains is not alice in chains anymore without layne. and i kind of feel like they're disrespecting him a little bit by keeping going under that name with this new dude who's basically replacing him. layne staley is not just replaceable. i'm sorry. i know i'm ranting about something stupid. it just bothers me. i really like alice in chains. i'd go so far as to say that they're one of my favorite groups of all time. top ten definitely. they may not be exactly what kind of music i'm into at a given time, but i always have a love and respect for alice in chains. they're just good. they WERE good. now, i don't know what they are. their new stuff could totally rock but i refuse to listen to it, because they're saying it's alice in chains and to me it's not alice in chains. anyway. i'm moving on. i have other things i must do. i just felt like sharing this with you all. ha. sorry. later.