okay so i won't lie. i had a terrible day. i was by myself again because my parents were at katie's volleyball tournament and i just didn't want to go, i'm so sick of going away every weekend, especially since i have an ap test on tuesday and all. so anyway, the weekend started out alright, like last night my dad was still around to have dinner with victoria and me and then i like chilled with victoria and everything was cool. but today i was doing my usual chilling and stuff and i went out to lunch with alison at mom's diner and that was pretty good and stuff and all i was really stressed about was that i had to get my mom a mother's day gift sometime during the day, which i ended up doing but it ended up being a lot more stressful because by then i didn't really have time, but then my parents called and said they wouldn't be home for the cavs game so i could take friends, and obviously i was excited about that at first but i didn't realize how hard it would be to find four people to go....like no one was answering their phone, and i understand why some weren't because on friday evening i was acting a little bit psycho...like i was freaking out that i would have a bad weekend because it's that time of year again...i mean i'm not crazy, but we all know that i have a really bad case of ptsd because of what happened last summer, and yeah, without my meds, i start to feel a little weird, but that's really just because i've been on them so long and i've pretty much grown dependant. anyway, i obviously wanted to invite one person but that person pretty much thinks i'm crazy and that person definitely has a right to think i'm crazy because when people don't call me or appreciate my niceness, i get mad...we've discussed this before....and when i get mad, i get a little crazy, and start to do really weird things...i get like extreme road rage and i start to say really crazy things about really really weird things...i mean this doesn't happen a lot but if i'm already in kind of a bad mood and i'm a little on edge because i'm worried about something and then i just get sent over, i can be a little scary. and i know i can be clingy, too, when i get scary, because i start to really hate silence and need to be talking to someone constantly because honestly i'm just afraid of what i'm going to think...so anyway, i ended up getting so mad that i broke my phone screen last night and totally freaked a bunch of people out because of my constant calling and craziness and stuff so yeah that person definitely hates me, with good reason. so i left a message for that person anyway and i was so mad that that person never called me back, because i mean i invited that person to a cavs playoff game, which was really stellar by the way, and that's a really nice thing to do, but no, don't call me back or anything...and honestly, when people don't call me back i get worried, like is something wrong with them, is something wrong with me, why aren't they answering, why aren't they calling me back, did i do something, are they dead??? i mean it goes from minimal to extreme, i know i'm really strangely paranoid sometimes...but i knew victoria would come with me and sam would too, and sam ended up being like my saving grace today because no one else was answering their phone for me so i basically vented everything to her and turned to her for advice and it really helped me a lot because when i start to feel really bad is when i start to feel really isolated and alone, so thanks sam, you really helped me out today...anyway, everyone was busy and/or not answering the phone so we took sam's little sis becky, who i totally love btw, to the game, and that probably ended up being more fun than taking anyone else because i really like becky and she's really funny! but driving downtown was rough. i mean there was the cavs game, the indians game, and some benefit at the rock and roll hall of fame, so the traffic was hell, and once we finally got there there was NO parking whatsoever, and i was kind of freaking out, because i don't like to drive around downtown especially when there's bad traffic, i'm always afraid i'll hit something or someone or just go the wrong way on a one way street or get lost somewhere i don't know how to get out of or something, but this was just bad and traffic was literally at a standstill FOREVER and i was getting so mad that i snapped my phone in half, which only made me more mad!!! (so yes, note to everyone, i do not have a phone at the moment, so i have no idea if it's off or what but i can't receive calls or texts or messages or anything, so if you really need me, call the house, if you don't really need me, just wait another day or so and hopefully i'll have a new phone soon, if i don't, you'll be seeing much more angry megan around!) so then finally we found a parking garage that let us in, so we drove around to try and find a spot, but there were none! so by then i was PISSED! and we drove up to the exit and i was like um i want my money back, i mean, i was fuming, but the guy was like no just drive back in and find anyspot, handicapped, reserved, whatever...so we drove back in and the guy led us to a spot that wasn't a real spot and it was really hard to park into, but we finally did. so i was still really upset because my phone snapped in half so i called my mom on sam's phone and i was crying and stuff because i was all worried my dad wouldn't let me get a new phone and it only got worse when we went through security and all they gave us was a towel and i was like what no shirts, because i was totally counting on the shirt, i hadn't even worn anything cavs, just a tank top and cardigan and i was depending on the rise up shirt! so i was mad and then i got more mad when we went up to our seats and i looked around the arena and people were all wearing matching shirts! and i was like to the usher what did they run out of shirts?? and she was like, no, they're on the chairs! and i was like oooooh, and that made a lot more sense because the shirts were color-coded by section which actually looked pretty cool, but would've looked a lot cooler if everyone had put their shirt on! so we went to our seats and i put on my shirt and then the game started and obviously it started really well, right from the get go, so i'm just sitting there, enjoying the game, trying to calm down, telling myself it will all be okay and then i hear someone cough next to me and i look over and there's this man sitting on the steps and he's like falling over! so i got the server for our section and she got the usher who got the paramedics and the man wasn't telling us what was wrong, he was just sitting there kind of looking like he was going to throw up or something, and i was honestly worried he was having a heart attack! so i was so scared and i couldn't help but think to myself, wow, this is the day from hell...but finally he stood up and went out into the hall...a few minutes later, the server, jen, cam back and told me what had happened...she said he shut his finger in a door earlier that day and the pain overcame him....i was like um wow wtf that sucks....anyway....after that things went a lot more smoothly, thank God!!!!

so the game was awesome! it only got more awesome by the second! everyone was playing great, even if lebron is not having his best games right now, he's still awesome! and um, can i just say, i LOVE delonte west!!!! he's just so cool! he's always rocking it for us and i'm so glad he's on our team! oh, and he has really pretty eyes! also, ben and wally were rockin it too! so was joe! everyone tonight, they were great! we played so much better as a team! um and the best part of the game was that anderson was on the stationary bike like right in the little alley-way that goes back to the locker room...like if his knee was bothering him, which i'm guessing it was, he definitely could've gone back to the locker room and ridden the bike and watched the game on tv, but no, he stayed out there and rode the bike right there in front of everyone, and it was honestly kind of funny, but it was really really cool of him to do that!!!!! idk if they made him or anything, but it's awesome to see us be such a team! i love andy, he's always getting technicals for standing up for lebron!!! lol....sasha came in in the last few minutes when it was pretty much obvious that we were going to win...i mean it makes sense because he's coming back from an injury, but he still did have some points!!! go sasha! so yes, i was very pleased with that game, it was a lot of fun because it was so damn awesome! that's how we play at home! the shirts said bring it, and we brought it! way to go cavs!!!!!! i knew we could do it, keep it up!!!!!!

ha, this is a picture of our section, but i guess it was taken right before we got there:


i love this pic, andy is so intense!!! keep it up andy, just don't get yourself into trouble!


so after the game, getting out of the parking garage wasn't as hard as i thought it would be, thanks to a great suggestion from becky, it just took a long time, so we were basically parked in the line for about fourty-five minutes but then we started this dance party with the guys in the car next to us, they would blast some music, some rap, rihanna, run dmc, whatever, then we started blasting sandstorm and the party really took off! it was awwwwesome! then we finally got on the road and headed home, yay!

so that's it...that's my weekend...tada! go cavs!

seriously. great game. i applaud all of you, cavaliers, you were excellent, EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! perfect way to end it. you guys just...brought it tonight. CONGRATS!!!!!! sasha even played for a while!!! yeah yeah! i did as i said i would, i had a watch party for the game. it actually had a rather good turnout...lots of food, lots of excitement, lots of gossip, of course, and we even had a pool complete with exceeeeeeellent prizes. it was super fun. well at least to me. besides the fact that i can barely breathe even though i'm taking like a gazillion allergy meds.

k, well, anyway. today was our all-day calc review. pretty intense. thank goodness for those 7 diet cokes i had to get me through the day and that lunch break at peppermint thai!!!! yeah, and all day i pretty much had that old school song by 2gether stuck in my head...you know, the one that was like "i know my calculus...you+me=us" hahahaha! yeah, we actually paid attention for most of the time, except that we played mash at the end and i went through a list of about a gazillion movies that i was in the mood to watch including motocrossed (love it), brink, detroit rock city, urban legend, not another teen movie, and a buuuuunch of others. krista kept talking about how she was in the mood to watch she's all that, and i'm like um krista no, that's like my least favorite 90s teen movie of all time. for sure.

i haven't had a chance to really post in a while because livejournal hasn't really been working on my computer...idk why.

anyway, yesterday was pretty fun, too. we went downton, kevin, cortney, alison and i, to shoot this video about diversity for a training program at my dad's work. it was really cool. it was in a studio in ohio city and it was like a photo shoot and then they're going to put the pictures into a video, set to knockoff nirvana musica, ha, i just say that because it sounds a LOT like nirvana, but obviously they couldn't use real nirvana with all the copy-rights and stuff, and this is actually probably a better alternative because it's instrumental and in the pictures we're all holding signs which really convey the message so we don't really need lyrics to do that...

i don't know how the weekend will go. well, first i have to clean the basement. it was a fun party, it really was, i just can't breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!