here's the pics, thanks to carly!

so you may have noticed that i haven't posted in a while. that's because i've been incredibly busy. and incredibly tired.

thursday was a whirlwind of errands, volleyball games and avoiding ex lovers.

friday was more fun, though i only enjoyed half of it considering that i slept until 2 pm. after i woke up i had a minor red velvet cake disaster and ran some errands then i hung out with krista and arianne, which was of course very fun.

today i did a few random things, hung out with my grandma and cleaned. this evening i saw whiteout with my uncle john. it was okay. i really just went to see that movie because i like snow. it was mildly thrilling. i guess i'd recommend it for a rather enjoyable, fairly short movie if you're bored.

other than that i've been sleeping. and attempting to finish the latest book of the vampire diaries. that's all.

ah, i'm feeling better. you know how i know? well, one of the reasons anyway. i'm listening to new music. and actually enjoying it. like blasting it in the car and not feeling antsy like i have to change it to something familiar. before when i heard new music i was just kind of like, eh, this is cool, i'll remember it for later when i'm feeling better. but now, i'm actually enjoying it. for the past few months i've just been listening to everything old and familiar. blasting tons of afi like listening to all the songs of my past will somehow make it 2005 again and nothing will have ever happened. but life doesn't work like that, does it?

annnnnnyyyyywaaaaaay. don't worry about the layout change. it's only for vampire week. i'm not going full-on goth for you or something. i just thought it'd be nice for our little celebration of the undead.

just a few updates on my life. yesterday was rainy. so i saw two movies. first, i saw orphan by myself. that movie is twisssssted! you must see if you haven't already. i know i'm a little late on orphan but i just hadn't gotten around to seeing it yet, and when i finally did, i was so shocked it made the wait so worth it. seriously, it's crazy. seeing it was kind of funny. it was the middle of the day and i was the only person there, like literally, the only person. and even though it was broad daylight outside, being the ONLY person in a dark movie theater during a horror movie is a little creepy. later on i saw all about steve with arianne and krista. WORST MOVIE EVER. it was really, really, really stupid. but then we went to the cheesecake factory for dinner and that was really, really fun so it was all good.

you know what i was just thinking about? alice in chains. i love alice in chains. and i love them more in the fall for some reason. their sound just reminds me of fall colors. and it just sounds better in the fall. it doesn't fit quite right with other seasons. but you know what pisses me off? how alice in chains came back with a new singer after layne staley died. they should have just stopped. and if they wanted to keep performing, which makes sense, i mean they're all good musicians, especially jerry cantrell, he's totally talented, but they should've gotten another singer and started performing under a different name. not alice in chains. and even if they HAD to do that, they should've just had like one reunion tour and played the old stuff with the new singer just for the fans to like go to a concert and see the other guys and sing along to their favorite alice in chains songs, but they should not have started releasing NEW music with this NEW singer as alice in chains. because to me, they're not alice in chains anymore. they're a different group. i mean, they still have the same guys, and the same sound, but it's not the same...to me, a lead singer makes a group (except maybe in fall out boy, and wow i can't believe i brought THEM up in a discussion about alice in chains, but yeah, that's ANOTHER story, one that i'll actually probably never talk about because i don't really care about them, but still, you get the point, in alice in chains, layne staley was the lead singer and the FRONT MAN....maybe some people would say jerry cantrell was/is the frontman, but i would disagree). to me, alice in chains died when layne died. like nirvana died when kurt died. and sublime died when bradley died. the guys from nirvana kept doing their musical thing. obviously, dave grohl has the foo fighters. and krist novoselic had that band, sweet some number or another, i can't really remember, but he did. and the guys from sublime kept performing, under the name the long beach all stars, but they weren't sublime anymore without bradley. and to me, alice in chains is not alice in chains anymore without layne. and i kind of feel like they're disrespecting him a little bit by keeping going under that name with this new dude who's basically replacing him. layne staley is not just replaceable. i'm sorry. i know i'm ranting about something stupid. it just bothers me. i really like alice in chains. i'd go so far as to say that they're one of my favorite groups of all time. top ten definitely. they may not be exactly what kind of music i'm into at a given time, but i always have a love and respect for alice in chains. they're just good. they WERE good. now, i don't know what they are. their new stuff could totally rock but i refuse to listen to it, because they're saying it's alice in chains and to me it's not alice in chains. anyway. i'm moving on. i have other things i must do. i just felt like sharing this with you all. ha. sorry. later.

you want some more?

some of my favorite pics from those good old times.

45 minutes to go...i'm just kidding, i'm just really hoping this goes well!!!!

so anyway, caroline's was really fun last night...there was no drama and it seemed like for a little while none of the bad stuff ever happened...just to make things clear nothing bad ever really happened with my friends, i just distanced myself from my friends because bad stuff happened to me and i didn't really feel like sharing it with them, so i kind of isolated myself...but i actually really do like my friends, i just haven't spent as much time with them in the last four years as i used to when things were easier and they could know everything that was going on because nothing was really that bad. anyway...i realized that i miss those days, when things were so much easier and more innocent, but it's significant that i realized this because for so long i've been like ugh i'm not going to miss high school at all i just want to get the fuck out of here! and that's completely true. i have quite a few memories of fun times from the first two years of high school and even some from the past two years, but the days i'm really going to miss are those days when we just sat around at a sleepover and none of us really hated each other, and no one had ever gone through anything really terrible, and we were all pretty much the same because we were so naive and no one had changed yet or grown up before the group and then fallen out of step with everyone...those are the days i miss, and i missed that even in high school, so it's not going to be any different in college...i'm not saying i'm not going to miss my friends, but if i miss them, which in a way i have for a while now, i'm used to missing them and the days of innocence already so it's not going to be something terribly tragic, so yeah...

anyway.

i won another contest today. i got tickets to see an advance screening of henry poole is here. i don't really know a whole lot about that movie, but luke wilson is in it (yum yum!...can't believe i just said that...) here's the trailer, do you think it looks good???
Henry Poole is Here


i still don't know if i want to see american teen. krista made a good point, that it's just following a bunch of kids around high school, and we already went through high school, and we're done with it...but there's just some kind of strange draw to high school movies (even though high school in reality pretty much sucks) that i think i'll feel even when i'm like a twentysomething...or at least i hope i do, because i really like silly little movies...here's the trailer for that:

maybe i'll go see that this evening...with my new haircut...that hopefully looks good....

so today was pretty good. i woke up at a reasonable time, but stayed in bed for about an hour listening to rover's morning glory with riley. after that i watched some law and order svu (the episode with edward furlong's wife...i actually hate that episode, but i watched it anyway) and some really old snl (2004 lindsay lohan, the one with the harry potter skit). then i got an unexpected visit from my grandparents, then finally got dressed and went to the bank and then to target to get some stuff for my trip. then i grabbed some lunch at abuelo's and read my new gossip girl book for a while, then i went to office max to get some pages for my day planner. finally i came home and started packing for my trip while i watched the bachelor marathon on vh1 and unsuccessfully tried to curl my hair. i finally got my hair looking decent (because my mom curled it with her really good rollers) and then i went out with my friends to champs for my "going away" dinner. dinner was fun, then after that we went to east coast custard, yummmmmm! after that victoria and i went to michael's because i needed some modge podge for a collage i was working on, then we picked up josie and went back to my house so i could give her the new pretty little liars book (SO GOOD!) and we ended up watching the new episode of the real world and then i took vic and josie home and now i'm here. good day? good day.

tomorrow i need to get up early. i even set an alarm, gasp! i have an appointment at 10 and i think i'm supposed to drive the dog's down to north canton because they're staying at my grandparents' house during our trip. and i have to finish packing........aaaaah, stressful!

so my sister has been working on a project for a midsummer night's dream all weekend, just like i did the weekend before the end of eighth grade...i actually don't think i ever finished reading that book...i didn't care for it much at the time, but now i actually really enjoy the story and appreciate the humor. anyway, on the last day of eighth grade (after the day of "punishment" for the food fight....um, yeah...i got out of that, but i'm not a narc i swear!...), rachel, arianne and i went to the country club so i could show them dan the lifeguard (i know right? he wasn't even there, hahaha) and then we came home and watched get over it because we'd just finished our projects on a midsummer night's dream. we literally memorized every word and every dance step to all of the songs. i told my sister she and her friends should watch get over it because it's frickin hilarious and has to do with a midsummer night's dream, but of course, because i suggested it, she was like um no. anyway, that movie is sooooooo good, and here are some of my favorite scenes from it:
this is like the opening scene of their musical version of a midsummer night's dream...hahahahaha...oh, btw the best part of the entire movie is colin hanks's expressions throughout the play, loooooooooove it!!

okay, this is like the "boy band" song...the "musical duel" over hermia...lovin the dance moves!!!

this is my personal favorite...the fairy song!!! sometimes i quote this, i got DO IT! in that whispery voice and no one knows what the fuck i'm talking about, but i just laugh to myself...haha, i'm weird...sisqo's dance moves...cool stuff....but little steve steals the show.

so yeah, maybe i've been described by a few people as "creepy" in the past...i just like to think of myself as a "really good detective." i like to know things, and i enjoy figuring things out. yeah, i'm always in everybody's business because to me everything's a mystery and i just want to know everything about everybody and that requires solving the mysteries...which requires me snooping around, hence the term "creepy." so yeah, that's why people call me creepy, or at least that's what i'm going to think. anyway, i was listening to my itunes last night when i was going to sleep and all of a sudden this song came on that i hadn't heard before by the donnas (i love the donnas, seriously) and it was called "i don't want to know" and i was like omg, is this song about it? and it made me feel a lot better because it made me feel a lot more normal because if brett anderson and the other donnas feel the same way, then um, i can't be that weird...i was further reassured that i'm not actually that creepy and that much of a psycho when i talked to arianne earlier this day...i hadn't really talked to any of my friends about the "incident" because it's so embarrassing, but now that it's out in the open, hopefully we can laugh about it? anyway, here is the incredibly amazing video for the incredibly amazing song by the incredibly amazing band the donnas (p.s. their clothes are incredibly amazing as well):

but yeah, okay, admittedly, from the way i was acting on friday and saturday, one might think that i'm actually not that normal and that i'm a lot more like caroline from that 70s show...in other words...a psychopath. i'd like to clear some things up...i'm not actually a psychopath. lots of people seem to think i take antipsychotics? but i don't. just things for my depression and anxiety. people seem to think there have been moments when i've gone absolutely insane? yes, that's actually true. i have a tendency to get very angry and to act really really weird, but that only happens when i like don't take my medications and then it's just cuz i feel so weird, like i feel sick and headachy and i start to freak out and stuff, or if i'm triggered by something. i have a lot of anger and stuff built up because of the crazy things i've been through, i'm not trying to have like a pity party here, i'm just explaining some of my odd behavior...yeah, and last year i was so weird because i had a tumor behind my left eye and i didn't know why i felt sick and had headaches all the time! so ha, yeah....true story, i'm not even kidding, i told you i've been through some really odd things!!!! anyway, here are some scenes from one of my favorite characters ever!!!!!:

seriously. great game. i applaud all of you, cavaliers, you were excellent, EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! perfect way to end it. you guys just...brought it tonight. CONGRATS!!!!!! sasha even played for a while!!! yeah yeah! i did as i said i would, i had a watch party for the game. it actually had a rather good turnout...lots of food, lots of excitement, lots of gossip, of course, and we even had a pool complete with exceeeeeeellent prizes. it was super fun. well at least to me. besides the fact that i can barely breathe even though i'm taking like a gazillion allergy meds.

k, well, anyway. today was our all-day calc review. pretty intense. thank goodness for those 7 diet cokes i had to get me through the day and that lunch break at peppermint thai!!!! yeah, and all day i pretty much had that old school song by 2gether stuck in my head...you know, the one that was like "i know my calculus...you+me=us" hahahaha! yeah, we actually paid attention for most of the time, except that we played mash at the end and i went through a list of about a gazillion movies that i was in the mood to watch including motocrossed (love it), brink, detroit rock city, urban legend, not another teen movie, and a buuuuunch of others. krista kept talking about how she was in the mood to watch she's all that, and i'm like um krista no, that's like my least favorite 90s teen movie of all time. for sure.

i haven't had a chance to really post in a while because livejournal hasn't really been working on my computer...idk why.

anyway, yesterday was pretty fun, too. we went downton, kevin, cortney, alison and i, to shoot this video about diversity for a training program at my dad's work. it was really cool. it was in a studio in ohio city and it was like a photo shoot and then they're going to put the pictures into a video, set to knockoff nirvana musica, ha, i just say that because it sounds a LOT like nirvana, but obviously they couldn't use real nirvana with all the copy-rights and stuff, and this is actually probably a better alternative because it's instrumental and in the pictures we're all holding signs which really convey the message so we don't really need lyrics to do that...

i don't know how the weekend will go. well, first i have to clean the basement. it was a fun party, it really was, i just can't breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, i know it's been horrendously long since i last posted, and obviously i have a lot to post about since it's been, gasp, THREE DAYS!!!!!!!! so we'll break this down into sections....first of all...

CAVS: how amazing was that game yesterday?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! that was aaaaaaaaaaaawesome! i'm so happy we won! kevin and i went to champs to watch the game and it was really fun because there were lots of other people watching the game there and it was really really exciting. delonte's last shot, wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! amazinggggggggg!!!!!!!! it was really cool, and then the best part was for sure wally's reaction, lol, he was like squeezing the life out of delonte!!!! so yay cavs! i'll be at the game on wednesday, back home, woohoo!



SASHA: there have been no sasha pavlovic sightings that i know of this weekend. as usual, if you have seen him anywhere, please tell me, cuz you know i like to consider myself the perez hilton of cleveland cavaliers basketball....ahahaha, i'm lame...but anyway, i didn't see him at the game, and you know i was looking intently.

PROM: seems like most of my friends had a great time at prom and the whole thing went down without a glitch, but some of my friends got a little naughty in the limo (you know who you are ;) !!!!!), and i hope that none of them are ever public figures because the whole thing was caught on tape! i'm jk, it's not that scandalous in the scheme of things, just compared to the usual behavior of my friends it's shocking, lol.

WEEKEND: this weekend was fun, obviously, victoria, courtney and i went to columbus. it was kind of annoying because they wouldn't give us the hotel room because we're not 21, so my mother's friend dena had to come and check us in. at first we thought our plans were foiled but they ended up being fine. we hung around osu for a while, had lunch at a terrible restaurant (mad mex on high street, NEVER EAT THERE, it's horrible!!!!), went shopping (american apparel <3<3<3), then went to easton for more shopping and saw harold and kumar, which was HILAAAAAAAAAAAAARIOUS! love that nph!!!!! it's really raunchy, so if you're like really prude don't see it!!!!!!!!! then we went shopping more, had dinner at this really fun place that was kind of like dave and buster's and we played in the arcade forever and totally humiliated ourselves in ddr, and then we saw forgetting sarah marshall again and it was a lot better seeing it with my friends!!!! we spent the night at the hotel then drove back sunday morning. as i mentioned before (see CAVS section, lol) i had a late lunch with kevin at champs while we watched the cavs game. after that we hung out for a while, went to borders, ran some errands, etc. then i went to bravo! with my friends for a going away dinner for rachel because she's going to canada for senior project tomorrow. it was super fun, then we hung around eton for a while because it was a pretty nice night....actually we had a mini dance party in the parking lot to see you again....and then we decided to go to blockbuster to see if 27 dresses was out yet (it wasn't) which proved to be disastrous because i got in a fender bender when i was trying to back out. yeah, i know, i suck. that's it.

TV: i finally, finally, finally got to watch last week's gossip girl, so i'm all caught up for tonight. THAT WAS THE MOST INTENSE EPISODE EVERRRRRR!!!!! yesssss! apparently there's no more new episodes of new amsterdam? boo. i still haven't watched grey's but i'm pretty much caught up on all of my shows.

HOT GUYS: by watching harold and kumar, i've found a new guy for the actors list. eric winter. he played the asshole dude in the movie, but nonetheless, he's really attractive. he dates roselyn sanchez, who is incredibly gorgeous.



oh, and i still am like....obsessed with that random kid.

GOSSIP: apparently miley cyrus has more slutty pictures out, this time for vanity fair, surprise surprise. miley girl, just stop, just stop. perez had this to say about it:

umm, what else? lori loughlin has been cast in the new 90210, i'm sorry but i can't wait for that, i just have a feeling it's gonna be awwwwwesome!!!!! hilary duff might be in it as well! perez also reports that one of the veronicas is getting married to a really really hot guy, who is, gasp!, a virgin!!!! even hotter!

that's pretty much it on the gossip front except for that craaaaaazy incest story from austria.....ah, so creepy!!!!!!!!!!!!

k that's it....peace out!

well, i'm in the school parking lot actually. just waiting for my film group because we're going to start filming out short.

so anyway...yesterday....i obviously went home from school. then i chilled and had an appointment, and then my mom and i ended up seeing leatherheads....and of course a group of my friends was there, ha. i mean, i wasn't at school at lunch yesterday or anything, so i'll just pretend like that's why i wasn't invited, ha. okay, so anyway, that movie was exactly what i thought it would be, mediocre. it was cute at some parts but some parts were so annoyingly corny that it was like wow this movie is lame. i mean it was enjoyable, i never wanted to get up and leave during it, but it wasn't like wow i'll definitely be thinking about this tomorrow and i sooo have to see this again. no, not really.

but anyway, i think we do have to add george clooney to the actors edition even though he'll totally be the oldest guy on the list...but really, that man just looks better with age.

ugh, my computer screen is really dirty. i need to clean it off. and i need to get the sound fixed. ha.

oh yeah, and i need to clean my room.....

oooh, and i've decided that detroit rock city is officially an awesome movie!!!! it's so damn funny!!!!! but not as funny as pecker. gosh, i love that edward furlong....he's just great. anyway, yeah, detroit rock city is awesome!!!! and they're from cleeeeeeveland!!! sweeeet!

okay, megan out. haaaaaaaaaa.

fucking weird dream last night. fucking fucking weird. there were two parts. part one is more boring so i’ll start with that. for some reason it all centered around a grocery store that was like the local after school hang out. of course, because i’m terribly anti-social, i would never really go there and i wasn’t really in on the whole hanging out at the grocery store after school thing. but one day i decided to go there with ashia, arianne, caroline, and the crowd and they all thought they were soooo cool because they would just hang out for hours and hours at the grocery store after school. well, i decided that i really wanted a cupcake and i wanted to eat the frosting off of the cupcake. but then i decided i needed two. so i went to a checkout line to pay for the cupcakes, and i was like expecting them to be four dollars or something, but the jackass at the cash register goes...it’s ten cents, just kidding! it’s twenty-one dollars. and i was like wtf twenty-one dollars for two fucking cupcakes, and he was like yeah they’re luxury cupcakes. and i was trying to explain that i didn’t have twenty-one dollars and i just really wanted the cupcakes so i could eat the frosting and then right in front of me the guy takes MY cupcakes and starts eating the frosting off with a fork. and i like freak out and go to tell the manager and he tells like the general manager and then i was like omg i probably got this guy fired...and claudia fired too, because for some reason she like worked at the cash register with the guy or something. and then i was like omg, i’m late for the soccer game, even though i didn’t really play anymore i was like the team trainer and it was like a district tournament and mr. boyle was the coach and sent out a memo that no one else besides family, boyfriends, and megan could come and watch so i decided i better go, so i went but then i was bored and really wanted grape juice, so i went and visited my grandma in this weird luxurious apartment she had underground and she was telling me how she was going to this really swanky wedding and they sent her an outfit to wear and she had to dye her hair blue to match it, and i was like no grandma don’t, so we found a way to match the outfit to her without dying her hair. then...all of a sudden i was like grandma i have to go! benson and stabler need me!!! so i like ran out and there was like this shoot out thing with this young kid who they were trying to catch and it was on a spiral staircase and the kid was off his rocker.

so that was part one. part two was insane. okay so i guess i was part of this totally bizarre club at my school that had a project once a year where you go to someone’s house like as a surprise and clean it and they totally can’t know about it. so i was assigned to clean this really rich palestinian (i think, or something like that) guy’s house, and everyone was like that’s not like a house it’s a hotel, people come and go out of there 24/7. so i was like ok, cool, this is going to be like impossible to clean the place without the guy knowing. and also it was like totally dangerous for me to go there because it was like forbidden that i associate with these people. so all secretly i enlisted the help of his two teenage sons to get in and out of the building and clean it without his knowing and making it look like i wasn’t associating myself with these people. so i went to the place and it was like this crazy retro sixties like hotel thing and people of this culture or whatever were coming in and out all the time. so i met the younger son, who happened to be sal mineo, outside the place and he helped me get upstairs to like their penthouse suite. so he was the only one home and he was showing me around and stuff and trying to help me not to get caught. then all the house was clean and we still had some time and all of a sudden we started kissing, and i was thinking like no, i shouldn’t it’s forbidden, but i really wanted to anyway and we were like realizing that we really liked each other and it turned from like to being madly in love in like two minutes and then his dad was coming home so he had to sneak me out of the place. then i went home and i was changing my clothes in my room, and then from my big front window i could see this minivan in front of my house and there was this freshman standing in it with a megaphone, and i guess he was in the club too and he was the one assigned to clean my house, and he started screaming megan jarrett you suck at this, you’re not supposed to be home and now i know you know who you’re person is. and i was like oh whatever, screw it, i have to get back to the place to see sal. so the plan was that his older brother would meet me in the back of the building and we would walk to the front and he would get me upstairs without people knowing i was there. so we got to the elevator and we were the only ones in there and so we could finally talk and he was like so you really love my brother, and i was like yeah i think i do, and he was like you guys are soooo perfect together, you just radiate happiness, and i was like yeah he makes me really happy, and he was like just so you know i think this whole thing of it being forbidden for you to be with us is totally stupid. and so we went upstairs and his brother was like we need to plan a way for you two to escape and get married, and i looked at sal and smiled and we kissed and i was thinking like god i love him so much, this is perfect even if it is wrong. and then i woke up.

and yeah, sal mineo was sicilian, so i was almost right.